Headline of STAR The Newspaper Next Day : A Indian Guy was hit by a Big Oil Tank Lorry !
( Contents ) - [ Arvindren , 25 was on the way to his home at Damansara from The KL Town when he was hit by a big oil tank lorry . He was brought to the hospital immediately , at the right 12 a.m he passed away in Hospital Besar Kuala Lumpur . He was reported to past away in accident but he had cancer . The Oil Tank driver is safe without injuries . Arvindren , was seriously injured ]
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNDDDDD - 1 YEAR , Exactly on 02 December 2011 .
I always sit in KFC to relax my mind , everyday . My dad is a big business tycoon . He travels often and he don't have time for me . My mom , she's a typical housewife ( To be frank ) . She is the only one who I always shares my feeling too , she always make me calm by telling me everything has a ending and a value in it .When , I always ask about my DAD to her , she tells me Dad was the perfect guy she ever seen in her life . He loved her , for all ? I always think , which man would be enough perfect when he loves a typical woman ( Not being rude , she a good woman though ) with no studies and currently not ditching her for another woman and not making her cry . I never seen my Mom cries , My dad is a social man , but he never neglect my mum in public . He even holds her hand in public . Cute couples make me proud sometimes .
But , my type ? No Typical , no homely , social being , great background and studies . Beyond perfect girl was my type. Hanging out at nights with parties and drink is one of my dream with her too .
02 December 2011 ,
She appeared infront me . I hit her pink scooter accidentaly . She fell down . She was injured , not that bad . I thought of leaving her just there , but I didn't . She is a girl , and mum taught me before to be polite . I'm being ! I went to her , and said HI xd ( Quite cool right , she was injured and I went there saying HI ==" -ME ) She look at me , before I uttered some words , she crossed my words while looking at me and asked " Are you injured " . I thought myself , huhhh . I replied no . She stood up , took her scooter . I looked at her , she told me . " Sorry , If I hit you , I accidentaly did . Sorry again . Hopefully you are fine " . I was blurred , I should tell her that , not she !! . For me , maybe its rude or she is teasing me ? ;/
15 December 2011 ,
I saw her , in Hospital Besar Kuala Lumpur , she was at children's ward . I was amazed when I saw the kids were being happy and smilling around with her . The best part was , she was holding a kids hands and teaching her dance . I was too drowning in her cute look . She was happily doing anything without any worries , and keep jumping. I laughed , and I continue staring her with my hands locked near my chest and lying against the wall . She didn't notice me watching her , but her eyes was still in me . I don't know what feeling has attacked me till I'm not moving from the place . When I was melting in her eyes sight , a doctor tap on my shoulder and woke me up from staring at her . He asked me , " why are you staring her ? " I said , she made my eyes to do so . He smiled and hit his head and walk off while turning around his head a thousand times . While , I was continue-inq , she walk towards me . I was panic , but she just went away without noticing me . I had a ffuuuuuhhh ==" feeling .
15 January 2011 ,
I miss her , Its like one month - I didn't meet her . My friends are asking me , why are you searching a girl who you don't even know and maybe a stupid meet . I don't know , I have seen alot of girls , but nothing seems special to me than her . Yes I know , she wears only tradisional clothes , but WHAT ! I didn't mean , I love her . Just missing her like other girls ? maybe girls whom I used to clubbing before . I was smoking today , guess what I saww ! SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE . I was chit chatting with my friends , while smoking and I heard a annoying laugh behind me . I was quite pisst off with that laugh . I turned behind , so I can warn the person . It was a girl , hiding behind the tree . I went to her , my friends hold me . But , I was really pisst off - I went to her , unfortunately she walks towards the opposite bus stop . I keep chasing her while shouting , GIRL * to her . She never turned . Indeed her , her friend turn . Its gonna rain , There was a bus stop , she went to the bus stop . I know she gonna board the bus , but before that I really have to see her face . When she turn her head around me , I stopped following her and stare at her . She is the one , I was searching for this whole month . She looked at me , and smiled . She look stunning , in her white punjabi suit , with a white cute clip pinned on her hair , green and red mixture bangles , with high heels . She is PRETTY . Its heavy rain , and I really don't mind actually , to watch her in heavy rain . I went and hide behind the trees so , she couldn't noticed me .She gave her , strawberry cup ice-cream to her friend , and tied her shawl around her waist , leaving her high heels in the bus stop . She came out from the bus stop and start playing in the rain . I noticed , she was different . I bet , everybody will thinks her crazy but , she act like completely sweet idiot . When the bus came , she board the bus with wet hair . I walked away like a jerk . I was acting like a crazy guy , I know . I walked away from my bike , my friends called my name but I couldn't hear them , car hons , phone ringtones . Nothing , and only her laughter .
24 February , 2011
I know its a love feeling , because I just can't make her out of my mind . Too special , I couldn't eat , sleep well , and even I have problem in taking bath . While eating , My mom was pouring gravy on my plate , I hold her hand and asked her to sit beside me . She was suprised , I told her ? " Mum , I don't know this girl , I felt she is too special for me . I met her in a accident , she was injured but she was concern on me . The next meet was in hospital , she completely acting like a kid , ma . She was playing with that kids , singing some little kids song , I like her ma . She is very pretty , like you . Very elegant , no modern clothes and all punjabi suits . Maa , I don't know is this love - But I love her ma . " I walked away , leaving the food , I expressed to my mum everything . She look at me amazingly . She was speechless . She is the only companion , listens my feeling .
3 March , 2011
I saw her again , the same ice-cream place . My effort gets the value . I quickly drop my cigarette , it hurts . She walked towards me , she ask a favour to drop her home . It seems , the bus has break down . I went behind . the hidden tree letting her to wait near the bike . I was jumping as high I could because nobody could tell me , what was my feeling that time , when she ask me a favour . I couldn't stop smilling , Thats the part I hate the most . I was smilling , and keep smilling . Maybe Its a chance to know her house . I know right , evil minded . I dropped her home , she said thanks then she walked away without even turning back . I was disappointed , but maybe it will slowly takes time . I keep remembering the times , where she accidentaly hugged me from behind due to the break . I keep staring her from the rear mirror , she don't even knows . Her refreshing smell , her fragnant of hair still on my nose .
5 May , 2011
Its late night , 1 a.m . I saw her jumping over the fence . Maybe she is trying to elope from home . No no , this should never happen . I took my bike quickly , and ride infront her house . I made her , to notice me , And I did . She noticed me , she ask me where am I going , I told her that I'm going back home . She asked me , not go home , instead ask me to follow her to a beautiful place that I could not imagine . Its not , I have been there , but With her the place is completely changed for me . The fountain , is pretty . She look at the water flowing , I was just looking at her , without any feeling for the fountain . Only her , . She ask me to come near her , she asked me to look at the fountain . I looked , she explained me that she will used to stand there and look at it . She felt that the fountain usually expressed her feelings which she couldn't really tell . Normally , her visit to this place is because of her stressful life , she never tell me anything and I don't care that too . I just wish the day not to end quickly . Suddenly , I saw her sobbing . God Damm It , I never see tears in her eyes before . I hugged her , she hugged me back . I kiss on her forehead so she can stop crying . She did , and she push me too. And she ran away . I was shocked when she pushed me . I saw she runs away , I couldn't catch her because it was my fault .
6 June . 2011
I saw her again , in the lif . Midvalley Megamall , she look at me but she ignored the look . I felt very guilty , because of the forehead kiss . I chased her , when she went out from the lif . I
She walks too fast , But I managed to chase her , and pull her to the exit . I asked her sorry , and asking her why did she ran away from me that day . She never speak. Her silence made me too sick , I couldn't get angry on her . I beg her feet , but she pushed off . I told her , I loved her , she gave me a furious look and walk away . I felt too , sick and depressed . I could not speak , only tears rolling on my eyes . Why she walk away , she don't like me ? She hugged me ? I went to car parking , I saw her in the car , I knock the windows and her mirror . She never give me any respond . I know , she is crying but why she is crying ? I beg her , I cried to her but she sped off her car and went out from the area . I fall on my knees , I hold my head and cried . I went back home , with sick . Mom saw me , she asked me what happen ? I shouted at her to leave me alone . Ended up , dad scolded me . And I make myself not to bother anyone after this .
7 July , 2011
For past ONE MONTH , I didn't come out from the house . I felt nothing outside the world for me. Mom never talks to me for past one month after the havoc . For her ! Ding Dong , the bell sound . I went and opened the door , the first thing I was suprise , A bouquet , its like specially made for me . She stare at me , than she asked me whos Madam Mahalakshmi . I was still staring at her with shocked feeling . She wave her hand infront my face . She asked me again who's Madam Mahalakshmi . I said , she's inside . She went inside with the flower , while smilling to me . oh god , SHE SMILE AT ME ! I fell , fainting . But I didn't faint , she went inside to the kitchen . My Mum , she hold the flower while talking to her very friendly . I asked my mum , whats special after she went out . She said , its from my father , and this girl is working as runner in the flower shop . I hugged my mother , and asked sorry . My mom blinked her eyes , telling me that she really don't understand whats going on . I told her , she gonna get her daughter in law very soon .
15 August , 2011
Everyday standinq infront of her house is tireing when even don't care you exist . I'm not giving up , but I love to . Her stuborness has no limit . But Today , she walks towards me and asked am I the guy who hit her the other day . I was shocked , I nooded yes . She scold me terribly , And Guess What it happens on January , she scolding me on August . I couldn't calm her , She was angry . When I wanna ride off from there , she asked me to drop the fountain place . She showed me the direction . I just followed . I brought her there . I know she was stressed out . I believe she have a point of coming here . She hugged me , she kissed on my forehead . I was suprised but I just let her do it . I want her to be safe in my arm . She made my T-shirt wet , she told me her problems . I kissed her on the forehead . We sit on the nearby bench . She told me , she have came here before with a guy , in the midnight . That guy , kissed her on forehead and let her go . I was shocked , I didn't . But I let her to expressed everything . She did , she was sobbing while her tears keep dripping . I hold her face , wipes her tears , hold her hands and told her I loveYou . All what she did was , she ran away - took a taxi and believe me again , I'm disapointed again ;(
3 September , 2011
The worst ever , I have received the test report . I wish I could killed myself . I was nearly fainted . I saw a girl hold my hands , when I woke up . She was asleep near my bed . I woke her up , and it Her . She was smilling at me . She asked me , whether am I feeling better now . I said yes , she pour some nescafe in two cups and we drink , I keep looking at her , she was telling me all her cute stories to entertain me . All this moment , I don't want anybody to disturb me . I see her eyes with full of loves and excitement . Her cute smile and dimple , her expression , I was floating . My eyes can't stop staring . I asked her name , Hashini . God is great , I knew her name after nine months . We exchange number . She left the room , and I qot discharge . I never tell anybody the test report . I kept it myself .
5 September , 2011
I miss her , I called her today . She answered me , and ask me who am I ? . I told her , she is the one companied me in the hospital , tell me cute stories and I'm Arvindren . She said , she don't know me - and she put down the phone . That is rude , I bang my head on the wall . Pain , pain , pain ;(
10 October , 2011
She called me early morning , she wished me Happy Birthday . I was shocked , She asked me why I didn't call her . I told her , I was busy . I was not busy , but was waiting for her call . I asked her , how do she knows my birthday , she replied " I knew it by , your I.C " . I was smilling . She still remember . We were talking for more than 2 hour , And I was the happiest guy in the earth :) . She was describing her dream boys , best part . I listen attentively , so I can try to be one . I told her , my dreams on girls . I describe her , she pretends her not .
11 November , 2011
I proposed her , near the fountain with roses and crowds while falling on my knees . I told her " ( You was the one I always dreams for , you made my life too miserable till I can't find myself in it if you are not in . You may be bad , but for me you are a angel . You may be ugly , but believe me you are the beautiful girl I have seen in my life , I always hopes you to shower your love , concern . The thing I love you , You care me . You cheer me up . I love you , i wish you could be there when I need you . But , Hashini , believe me , I would always loves you , I won't scold you , will keep up my promises , Will never make you cry , will be with you when you needee me . Would You Marry Me , Hashini ? ) " She took my roses , throwed it in the lake , ran to the road and took a cab and went off . I looked her, running , the crowd which laughed at me, I was too broken , deeply broken . I'm not giving up Harshini . I loveyou . I cried . Cried . My heart broked once she throwed the flowers , I couldn't cry , everybody was looking at me , she only can ran away . I just couldn't understand . I swing my hand while hitting it on my thighs , My anger. I went back home , I couldn't think much , I cut my wrist , its bleeding . Mom saw , she quickly call the ambulance . And there is me , in Hospital . I asked my mum , " Why did , you save me ? why maa " , Mum thought I was mentally disturbed . My dad spoke to the doctor . After , I get well , they want me to join some counseling programme so I can really get well .
24 November , 2011
I saw her again , in the children's ward . She was playing with that kids . I wish not to see her again , after this in my life and she appeared . When , I wanted to go down the staircase , she yell my name ? I turn and looked at her . She is the same old Hashini . She asked me , " How are you , Arvindren ? " I said , I'm fine and I should go . I walk off , I just wish not to see her again . She stand there with my shocked movement , after a while , she was back to the kids ward . I can't , seriously I feel like hugging her , kissing her , keep her in my arms all day . I felt that , I went back my room , hit the walls and crawl to the corner of room , and cry . Its hurting me , to look at a person who doesn't give any reaction when they expressed the feelings .
30 November , 2011
I saw her again , I have to admit I missed her . I went towards her , I stopped her and told her " Hashini , please listen to me . Please Hashini . I can't live without you . There is no life for me , please ? Please give me just atleast 12 hours to prove you , my love . Please Hashini - I beg your feet . Please Hashini . After this 12 hours , if you say you don't like me ? I would never see your face again . Believe me , this time " She walk off , but after a few minutes , she stopped . I was waiting , what she gonna say ? She turn and walk towards me , and told me " I will wait for you , infront my house at 7 o'clock in the morning . Fetch me and prove me . All the best " . I jump as high as I could . All the romantic songs , plays in my mind . I start imagining , what I'm gonna do with her , what can I bring her to make her happy . I couldn't sleep at night , imagining one whole day she gonna be with me . What should I wear ?
Headline of STAR The Newspaper Next Day : A Indian Guy was hit by a Big Oil Tank Lorry !
( Contents ) - [ Arvindren , 25 was on the way to his home at Damansara from The KL Town when he was hit by a big oil tank lorry . He was brought to the hospital immediately , at the right 12 a.m he passed away in Hospital Besar Kuala Lumpur . He was reported to past away in accident but he had cancer . The Oil Tank driver is safe without injuries . Arvindren , was badly injured ]
24 hours back , 1st December 2011
I waited , for him infront my house at 7 in the morning . But , he waited for me from 6:30 a.m in the morning . Made me , very special for him .He ask me to get on his bike . I get on his bike , he looked at me and smiled . He look the most handsome man in the world . His green T-shirt , with black pants and black shoe with polish . It match up with my green punjabi suit , with red bangles . I never wonder it could be really matched . This is my third time , I'm on his bike . The first place was a park . I see no one in the park , It feels weird . We sat on the bench , Suddenly - I saw butterflies flying in the park . God , I love butterflies . I ignored him , and start chasing the butterflies . I don't know he have chased me or what , But he gave me a colourful butterfly in a pink box with ribbon tied . I open the tied ribbon , I saw a butterfly in the hole . I open the cover , and set it free . He asked me why I set it free , I said " They were living free , I catch it for fun and wanna see it in more clearer vision. Thanks Arvind " He smiled at me . Its gonna be nearly 10 o' clock in the morning . He bring to a ice - cream parlour , he ordered two cup of ice cream . He knows my favourite , strawberry :) . I just don't know , how he knows . I pretend not to see him , because I know he is looking at me . I just can't look at his eyes , the stunning brown eyes . I finished eating it , while he still looking at me . My cheek is blushing , Suddenly Its raining heavily . We don't have any place to hide . But I love to play in rain , should act decent infront him . Haha . We went to a big tree , to hide ourselve from rain . Its getting cold , I could hug only myself . I felt his breath near my hair , I could feels his shawl on my shoulder . He pull of my black hair band so , my wet hair could dry . I could feel his love on me , my tears has roll on to feel his love . The rain stopped nearly 2 in the afternoon . He quickly took me to the old folks home , when I often visit when I'm free . I usually brings some souvenirs or fruits for them to eat . But this time , I didn;t bring and It made me feel guilty . I ask him in dissapointed tone , " I didn't bring anything for them , how you aspect me to meet them . Somemore , I have promised them I would make a big suprise in next meet . How should I meet them " I Sobbed . He wipped my tears and pointed to me the garden specialised for folks to have their leasure time . They were food giving ceremony . I ran there with excitement . Looking at them , having a delicious food . Some old folks , I know them very well . They shares their stories with me . They came and blessed with for the food . I brought them to Arvind , he was smoking. He dropped the cigarette , the old lasy she went near him and blessed him . He fall on her feet . It made me feel like , god He is just like me . I bring her towards the garden , while I turned back to look at him . I smiled , He smiled too . I turn back , and walks forward with the old lady towards the garden . After , eating I saw him walking on the corridor looking at me speaking with the old ladies . I act not to look at him , so I can show my lady stubborness . He nearly hit the wall in between each corridor . I laughed , and he went off with giggling . When its around 5 , We went to another place . He bring me to beach . While walking on the sand , with no sandals . I spoke to him about cigarettes , " Arvind , I don't see any bad attitude in you , but one thing . I hate to see guys smoking , I don't know why I like you smoking and I don't care . I'm sorry If I'm concern . Please stop smoking , I want you live forever , " He was shocked , than he continue walking with me . He didn't say any words , but I see one thing , He stopped smoking . I was happy for him . We walk on the sand , played double leg . I stand on his leg , he managed to lift me . So sweet of him , his odour , made me feels good with him . We played water , wash our legs together , shares funny stories together . I saw a crab and when I was panic I ran towards him and hugged him . He help me chased the crabs , What I know was , I really enjoyed my day with him . I laughed alot . Nearly 8 pm , he bring me to a restaurant when him and me only . I was suprised for the absence of peoples , normally I always wish to eat in this restaurant . But , I will change my mind , when I see the crowds lining up till the end of the road . Now , nobody . Only Him and Me . And some music band specially ordered for us to entertain us and a candle light for the brightness . He ordered a champagne , and we had a drink together . A wonderful night with full of dreams to be fulfil . We had food together , even we fed each other . Smiling , laughing and all was in my life today . Its 11 , he blindfold me and ask him to hold him tight when riding the bike . I did . He brought me , to the fountain . I love the place , I used to come here to expressed my inner feelings , where when I have quarrel with my families , they used to neglect me because I'm a spastic kid . I don't know when I will get angry , happy and all . I have scolded Arvin alot of times , I scat he would deny me , if he knows I'm a spastic kid . I know , I'm not perfect and nobody could live with me more than 24 hours . He could , He didn't proposed . I was waiting for him to do so , but he didn't . Finally , I managed to tell him , what I really feel about him . I started with " Arvind , This is like a dream to me . Am I still dreaming , the morning till this night . I was happy , lotsa of happy in my life . I never had this one before . I just couldn't imagine , someone like you , could love me truly , and deeply . I'm not rich , I'm a orphan , and I'm nobody here in this life . All I know , you from first till last , Thanks for giving me the day that I won't forget in my lifetime . Thanks Arvind " While saying that , I lie on his shoulder while he hugged me . He never says any words , but he kissed my forehead - I kiss him too , I hugged him back . I cry on his chest . He wiped my tears , and told me ILOVEYOU and kiss me on my lips . The fountain water , raised too high , it splash on us . Haha , we continue kissing till non-stop . He dropped me , at home telling me the next day , pack all the things to his home tommorow . I went happily , inside home . I never tell him I'm spastic but I will tell him soon and I believe he will accept me .
A spastic girl , jump down from 3rd floor from her college building due to her love failure . Hope She Rest In Peace ;'(
Both of them , just don't know they were not perfect , A spastic girl with a cancer boy due to smoke . But That , 1st December They knows , only them living in this world with no one in it , They loved and They keep loving .
ARVINDREN ` <3 HASHINI !
Head of creative , story and design : KAMALI A/P JEEWARATINAM
