I walked into his room , it was more like a rubbish dumping place. I felt like i'm a rubbish myself in the room. Its dirty and smelly as well. I took almost my another half of the day to clean the whole room and the house. Now the place is literally shinning. I rarely flinch myself into this cleaning activity but I had no choice. I stacked up few garbage plastics full of waste books and papers in the corner of the house. A diary dropped while stacking up my last plastic bag. I took the diary to place back but something got into my eye and now I'm keeping it for my plan. The clock is past 8 and my stomach is grumbling. My intention to walk out to get me some food is cancel when I saw him walking into the house with few plastic bags. He took out few plastic container and shift it into bowls. It was a little small feast but I enjoyed the food. While cleaning , I heard mumbled and ending with a scream. He asked me loudly about a diary and I lied. (REVENGE#1)
I told him I hasn't seen any diary from the day I came into the house. I go back cleaning the kitchen while he was grumbling that I haven't heard any voices from him again. When I go back to the hall , I saw torn plastic bags everywhere and papers were flying. I shouted angrily and we had a continuous argument. He tugged in his red converse and left. Partially ,it was my mistake but this is rude to just leave. " Ignore him " , I sigh . I clean back the papers and books , placed it back in a new plastic bags and stack it again. I was extremely tired where I knew I would just doze off while watching the TV. I succeeded , i mean by dozing off on sofa. YES. In the middle of night , I heard a soft noise approaching me , when I opened my eyes- I saw him standing beside me trying to put on blanket for me. I'm impressed but I'm just not done yet. I saw him sleeping beside me , on the floor actually beside the sofa. I dozed off immediately. I woke up to his raspy voice.
I got to keep torturing him so I decided to cook for him, HAHA. Big killer isn't it. I pleaded him to let me go supermarket and buy some stuff to cook. He was shocked to see my powerful reaction of pleasing. I bought few utensils and cooking item. Oh , I totally forgot to tell you how I got money, I sold off the papers and book to a " old paper buyer " . It was worth to RM60. I came back with heavy plastic bag on each side. I start cooking and poured a medium extra salt in the food. In the other hand for gravy , I added extra spice and for the vegetable I keep it slightly raw. With a smiling face , I shyly shuttered him for lunch. I served him with extra rice , gravy and vegetable. He was a little suspicious but I knew I managed to win his trust with my best acting, He vomitted out all from the first trial (REVENGE#2). He looked at me angrily while I was just eating without even bothering his presence. Well , I know nobody can beat how I eat. I do eat , extra salty , spicy and raw. So , I don't mind.
Friday, 2 October 2015
Tuesday, 29 September 2015
Unexpected Love ( Ep2 )
" We were assaulted and insulted by my parents. I stayed stationary , my heart stopped a moment to look back for what I've not done and him? Someone who I played with when I was small. This gives me goosebumps especially relationship after the yellow thread. My head was spinning , my nerves were aching and I know I will be threw out to no where even from the heart of my parents. To the eyes of them , I'm a betrayer. My heart sank deeply in the ocean of my tears looking at my parents , they were hurt. Whatever happened in the forest is kept safe. Nobody questioned , the jacket I wore on. Nobody even bothered to justify what could happen. My mouth is zip up and he can't speak any as well. We were brought to KL after a long night. I had non-stop tears flowing on my cheek and everybody pretended they had better work to do , sleep. This can not happen to anyone , any girl precisely.
As I reached at the doorstep of a famous condominium at Shah Alam , I noticed few bottles and undies on the floor. It was disgusting to me. I make my way to the washroom and locked myself in for almost an hour. When I came out , all I see a clean floor without undies and bottles and yes I went in a room with nothing inside except for a mattress *cough* a torn mattress of cause. I lie on it and slept. Without realizing the time had past , I woke up the next morning. I see nobody in the house except for a note , a telephone number. No , my ego were attacking me , I ain't calling him. But , I was starving badly. A text message at one , " Lunch is outside the door , call me when you feel safe ". I rushed to the door step and grabbed a big plastic bag of KFC and quickly ate it. As soon I finish my plate , I remember that I had to be gentle and I should keep some food for him. I look back into the plastic and there was none , nope I left nothing. I rang him , he picked up and said " No worries , that food is all yours. You don't have to keep anything. I will be back in an hour time " He hang up.
Somehow I felt safe , but I can' trust him yet, I went on thinking what can I do to pleasure myself. I need something , I need back my happiness. I need the smile I had last time. "YES" , I screamed. I NEED REVENGE. That people deserve no mercy.
As I reached at the doorstep of a famous condominium at Shah Alam , I noticed few bottles and undies on the floor. It was disgusting to me. I make my way to the washroom and locked myself in for almost an hour. When I came out , all I see a clean floor without undies and bottles and yes I went in a room with nothing inside except for a mattress *cough* a torn mattress of cause. I lie on it and slept. Without realizing the time had past , I woke up the next morning. I see nobody in the house except for a note , a telephone number. No , my ego were attacking me , I ain't calling him. But , I was starving badly. A text message at one , " Lunch is outside the door , call me when you feel safe ". I rushed to the door step and grabbed a big plastic bag of KFC and quickly ate it. As soon I finish my plate , I remember that I had to be gentle and I should keep some food for him. I look back into the plastic and there was none , nope I left nothing. I rang him , he picked up and said " No worries , that food is all yours. You don't have to keep anything. I will be back in an hour time " He hang up.
Somehow I felt safe , but I can' trust him yet, I went on thinking what can I do to pleasure myself. I need something , I need back my happiness. I need the smile I had last time. "YES" , I screamed. I NEED REVENGE. That people deserve no mercy.
Monday, 28 September 2015
Unexpected Love ( Ep1 )
" I'm perfectly grown. Currently , studying my last semester in teaching at private university. To be more accurate , i'm doing my praticum. In a recent break , my parents brought me back to hometown to celebrate a holy festival in the temple. I was excited as much I see my boyfriend. Oh yes , I have a boyfriend. So cliche. On my way to hometown , I start daydreaming about my beautiful accesories and my traditional clothing and on how I look like.
The temple looked so beautiful , perfectly blend with bright colours and the light decoration attracts most foreigner into the temple. That night was beautiful. Some spoiled brats were drinking after the holy event. They were about to slaughter few goats to pamper the goddess tomorrow for the big event. My mother's friend , Aunt Varalakshmi asked me to call her husband. I went and search in few places , around the temple , inside the storeroom and everywhere. I asked his grown up son who were standing nervously , don't know why. He told me , his dad is near the forest. By choice , I asked him to follow me. I noticed he was holding a yellow thread and a small antique box of kumkum. He was preparing the accesories to decorate the goddess.
I went in to call him. To my surprise , he was drinking as well. I was nervous , i told him his wife is calling him. He held my hand , my heart was beating really hard. I forcefully pulled my hand and start running toward out. He pulled me in and to my luck his son appeared. He was disgusted on his father. I cannot resist anymore action. The next minute I saw my neck is hang a yellow thread and the red kumkum were placed on my forehead. I feel so light and my body were shivering. I know this thing happen because a crowd were approaching into the forest. To save the situation , his son had to protect us. He had no choice. For a moment , i saw my past were flashing on my head and now I knew I lost my favourite present. He held my hand and brought me out from the place. Everybody were stunned including my parents and his mother."
The temple looked so beautiful , perfectly blend with bright colours and the light decoration attracts most foreigner into the temple. That night was beautiful. Some spoiled brats were drinking after the holy event. They were about to slaughter few goats to pamper the goddess tomorrow for the big event. My mother's friend , Aunt Varalakshmi asked me to call her husband. I went and search in few places , around the temple , inside the storeroom and everywhere. I asked his grown up son who were standing nervously , don't know why. He told me , his dad is near the forest. By choice , I asked him to follow me. I noticed he was holding a yellow thread and a small antique box of kumkum. He was preparing the accesories to decorate the goddess.
I went in to call him. To my surprise , he was drinking as well. I was nervous , i told him his wife is calling him. He held my hand , my heart was beating really hard. I forcefully pulled my hand and start running toward out. He pulled me in and to my luck his son appeared. He was disgusted on his father. I cannot resist anymore action. The next minute I saw my neck is hang a yellow thread and the red kumkum were placed on my forehead. I feel so light and my body were shivering. I know this thing happen because a crowd were approaching into the forest. To save the situation , his son had to protect us. He had no choice. For a moment , i saw my past were flashing on my head and now I knew I lost my favourite present. He held my hand and brought me out from the place. Everybody were stunned including my parents and his mother."
Thursday, 22 January 2015
Society shatters me into pieces about being in love.
First of all I'm not a "big" person to disgrace people whom worship LOVE. You listen to melodious song and dream that kind of LOVE- you ain't getting one bro. The recent one " Ennodhu nee irunthal , uyirodu naa irrupen " certainly a nice song , pictures beautiful scenery and you fall in love with someone you went with for the movie. You got the feeling for them after watching some love scenes. Now you are falling for the wrong point. You can't simply fall in love , love isn't made that easy for us to get tricked. You can't compare love with loneliness , desperation and longing. This three might bring you somewhere to the end and you will fall out. Let's get an example, you went out with your friend and saw a beautiful girl/handsome boy and you start having crush on them. okay ? You start dreaming about them , okay? But how do you confirm it's a love. LIKE HOW? You don't even know them. Don't start saying " It's first sight love you know " YES AH.... . Than okay , let's get into the point. If it's a first sight , what guarantee you have for loving her/him even not knowing her/him. Some people are really smart at moving their knight. Hold on , you say it's love ? But why after four months or "how many months you took"- you call it's just an infatuation.
[ whats-app conversation ]
" Hey .. I just want to tell you this. I know it's not doing well between us. I had a wrong concept on you , I don't know. I thought we could make an ideal couple but we have been arguing over it lately. We are better as best friends. I'm sorry to hurt you. I hope we can be a good friends , I can't afford to lose you anyways."
" f*** you "
How many of you did this and have regretted. Don't regret because you suck. My point here is , you can say " we are better off as friends " - easy to say never easy to implant. What if the person was blind to see your infatuation , believe on your words , believed on your comfy hug and kisses. WHAT IF.. ? You had sex. If a single hug couldn't convince them to move on , touching them beyond can do anything. Why? Why? We can never convince the society because they are RIGHT. My foot. You love a girl/guy because you liked something from them , their appearance or whatever so. Than you start having contact and hang outs. Soon or later , you get bored and leave them. Let me tell you the "pain" of having brainless people like you around them.
[ Stunts below are on blog purpose , do not try at home. ]
It hurts like
thank you.
[ whats-app conversation ]
" Hey .. I just want to tell you this. I know it's not doing well between us. I had a wrong concept on you , I don't know. I thought we could make an ideal couple but we have been arguing over it lately. We are better as best friends. I'm sorry to hurt you. I hope we can be a good friends , I can't afford to lose you anyways."
" f*** you "
How many of you did this and have regretted. Don't regret because you suck. My point here is , you can say " we are better off as friends " - easy to say never easy to implant. What if the person was blind to see your infatuation , believe on your words , believed on your comfy hug and kisses. WHAT IF.. ? You had sex. If a single hug couldn't convince them to move on , touching them beyond can do anything. Why? Why? We can never convince the society because they are RIGHT. My foot. You love a girl/guy because you liked something from them , their appearance or whatever so. Than you start having contact and hang outs. Soon or later , you get bored and leave them. Let me tell you the "pain" of having brainless people like you around them.
[ Stunts below are on blog purpose , do not try at home. ]
It hurts like
- Stabbing 1000 knives right on your heart
- Walking on 200 pins poking your leg
- Having so many nerves on your head bursting
- Loosing your virginity to 100 people
thank you.
Sunday, 9 November 2014
A split second which changed my life.
2nd Nov ,
Early in the morning , I was getting ready to go temple with my brother. While waiting for my brother to be ready , I was speaking to my mum and I recieved a call. I thought to myself , it must be my dad. He usually calls and asked us for any breakfast. Today , mum denied having any breakfast meanwhile , my brother and I planned to have it after praying. So I picked up the call , some husky painful voice were trying to speak , I said " hello " , and " I've got into accident " - god knew what dillema I was in when I heard that. He was unable to breathe and speak but managed to tell me the place where he got into accident. We rushed to the place and saw my dad was standing there holding his hip. He was half conscious. I saw pieces of bike scattered and a kancil car with no front wheel and "machines"( sorry I dunno what you call that ). The accident freaked me out and I don't really know what's next. Totally in dillema. So , we rushed to the nearby hospital meanwhile the ambulance were STILL ON THEIR WAY 😡. He was in a emergency ward as what happen to him is still unknown. I saw deep wounds with blood flowing. I could still see him strong even I could feel how weak he is now. They tear his jeans and cleaned the wounds on his leg. Then , they brought him to x-ray department. I heard nurse were whispering to each other that his ribs are fractured , like "5-6" But when the specialist checked the x-ray , it was two rib cracked , 8th and 9th. Still safe , nothing to threathen his life. Thank to god. Doctor asked us to admit him. And yay , he was admitted. Nothing to be happy about. I never seen my dad in this way , he was the strongest I've seen in the earth. Real strong. Whenever he fell down , he will never inform anybody and walked himself to clinic to put some injection and come back. This happens alot. But today , 2nd Nov - I would never forget. Changed my life , just like BOOOOOM. From 3rd Nov , everything was taken care by my mother and I - as my brother is sitting for his SPM. The first day , all his siblings and relative visited him. I dislike few scenarios. My (dad) niece and nephews , who they think they grown up so much and till they couldn't asked " how are you " , NEVERMIND. I see so many people , loved my dad. They visited him continously for past 4 days he was in hospital. My favourite visit * sounds wrong * hahaaaa , were his best friend and his wife from hometown. It has a family historic but nevermind. They sat for 3 to 4 hours with us. His wife is kind of a type which I really love being with her. She was waiting for my mum , and they hugged as soon they met. Dad was discharged on Thursday morning. I had to bring him for chinese medicine in the late afternoon after class. He was unable to sleep and walk so much. My dad is totally a indepedent man. He does things for himself and never hope for someone to do it. It really hurts to see a man sitting and unable to do something or sleep. It goes on until today but i'm lucky enough that he is strong. He went work today , hahaha. The sprit in him , trust me. ALL IS WELL :)
Early in the morning , I was getting ready to go temple with my brother. While waiting for my brother to be ready , I was speaking to my mum and I recieved a call. I thought to myself , it must be my dad. He usually calls and asked us for any breakfast. Today , mum denied having any breakfast meanwhile , my brother and I planned to have it after praying. So I picked up the call , some husky painful voice were trying to speak , I said " hello " , and " I've got into accident " - god knew what dillema I was in when I heard that. He was unable to breathe and speak but managed to tell me the place where he got into accident. We rushed to the place and saw my dad was standing there holding his hip. He was half conscious. I saw pieces of bike scattered and a kancil car with no front wheel and "machines"( sorry I dunno what you call that ). The accident freaked me out and I don't really know what's next. Totally in dillema. So , we rushed to the nearby hospital meanwhile the ambulance were STILL ON THEIR WAY 😡. He was in a emergency ward as what happen to him is still unknown. I saw deep wounds with blood flowing. I could still see him strong even I could feel how weak he is now. They tear his jeans and cleaned the wounds on his leg. Then , they brought him to x-ray department. I heard nurse were whispering to each other that his ribs are fractured , like "5-6" But when the specialist checked the x-ray , it was two rib cracked , 8th and 9th. Still safe , nothing to threathen his life. Thank to god. Doctor asked us to admit him. And yay , he was admitted. Nothing to be happy about. I never seen my dad in this way , he was the strongest I've seen in the earth. Real strong. Whenever he fell down , he will never inform anybody and walked himself to clinic to put some injection and come back. This happens alot. But today , 2nd Nov - I would never forget. Changed my life , just like BOOOOOM. From 3rd Nov , everything was taken care by my mother and I - as my brother is sitting for his SPM. The first day , all his siblings and relative visited him. I dislike few scenarios. My (dad) niece and nephews , who they think they grown up so much and till they couldn't asked " how are you " , NEVERMIND. I see so many people , loved my dad. They visited him continously for past 4 days he was in hospital. My favourite visit * sounds wrong * hahaaaa , were his best friend and his wife from hometown. It has a family historic but nevermind. They sat for 3 to 4 hours with us. His wife is kind of a type which I really love being with her. She was waiting for my mum , and they hugged as soon they met. Dad was discharged on Thursday morning. I had to bring him for chinese medicine in the late afternoon after class. He was unable to sleep and walk so much. My dad is totally a indepedent man. He does things for himself and never hope for someone to do it. It really hurts to see a man sitting and unable to do something or sleep. It goes on until today but i'm lucky enough that he is strong. He went work today , hahaha. The sprit in him , trust me. ALL IS WELL :)
Tuesday, 19 August 2014
Part V ( You & Me ) ❤
" I hate to see her with him. Why should she interfere in my life " I walked away while mumbling. When I turned behind , I saw him walking away with her. "WHAT". I couldn't take it to myself. I went to class and skipped the next class. I felt a strong hammer hamming my head. It hurts. I tried taking nap a while but I couldn't. The whole bed smells like him. I took some panadol and slept. After a few hours , someone knocked my door. It was raining outside and I was shivering while opening the knob. To my surprise it was my friend Nickel , he bought two hot cup to eat together. We had a good laugh together. I know Nickel from last time , during my secondary he was my junior. We spoke about his big fulffy crush and all that laugh we had ends at a door knob again. When I stand up , I accidentally spilled my curry on his shirt. He went to rinse his shirt while I went to open the door. It was Shyam. He looked quite furious and left. I was shocked when he left without saying a word. Nickel who saw all this left with his wet shirt. I saw my phone and it screens roughly 100 missed calls. I ignored everything and went to bed. Three in morning , I heard a loud thunder striking. It was scary. While closing the window , I saw a black shadow standing near the street lamp. I took an umbrella and ran to the street lamp. Shyam pushed the umbrella and I noticed his eyes were red. " Did you drink? " He nooded no , I increased my volume and asked again. He said no. I left him standing there and walk backed.
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Aamir brought his girlfriend to house. I was very pleased to have her in the family. We went outing together to Sunway Lagoon. I let my 17 years old daughter to enjoy before she goes through a though exam of the year. While sitting in the corner , he and I had a conversation about kids. We were so proud of their growth and moral values. My husband expressed how much he loves me and the kids and can't afford to lose us. I held his hand and lie on his shoulder. I could feel some absence between us but I'm glad that he always fulfill his responsibility. He held me and I still feel the heaven . I promised him , we will raise the kids in a fine way.
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Preeta , Aakash's wife fainted. When I held her pulse , it indicates that SHEISPREGNANT. How happy I could get when I'm soon to be a grandmother again. I realised not everybody are happy about it when I accidentaly passed-by my son's room. My daughter-in-law is not satisfied with the presence of new womb. She is not ready to have another child. That broke my heart but I walked away. It's their life and fate. Depends on them if they want it that way .
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Aamir brought his girlfriend to house. I was very pleased to have her in the family. We went outing together to Sunway Lagoon. I let my 17 years old daughter to enjoy before she goes through a though exam of the year. While sitting in the corner , he and I had a conversation about kids. We were so proud of their growth and moral values. My husband expressed how much he loves me and the kids and can't afford to lose us. I held his hand and lie on his shoulder. I could feel some absence between us but I'm glad that he always fulfill his responsibility. He held me and I still feel the heaven . I promised him , we will raise the kids in a fine way.
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Preeta , Aakash's wife fainted. When I held her pulse , it indicates that SHEISPREGNANT. How happy I could get when I'm soon to be a grandmother again. I realised not everybody are happy about it when I accidentaly passed-by my son's room. My daughter-in-law is not satisfied with the presence of new womb. She is not ready to have another child. That broke my heart but I walked away. It's their life and fate. Depends on them if they want it that way .
Saturday, 16 August 2014
Blind Eyes ( Part I )
I walked weakly into the toilet with tears. By looking at the mirror , I felt like punching the glass into pieces. I start punching my sink and blood start dripping. I couldn't take her absence in my life anymore. I heard my doorbell were ringing , I washed my face and walked towards my door. I covered my blood dripping wound with a white cloth and opened the door. A girl with a rainbow shirt and blue jeans waved at me. When I was about to slammed the door , she held the door with her right leg and stop it from shutting. I was mad , I started pushing the door to the end. In the pain , she sounded " I'm your cousin from Perak. Nobody tells you I'm coming over? " I stopped and start remembering back the phone call I received a day before yesterday. I let her in and the first thing she saw was the blood stain on my white cloth. She took the first aid-box which I kept on my dining table and sat beside me to wash the wound. I let her do and was watching television. After washing and covering my wound , she asked me where should she keep her bags. I pointed to the room beside my kitchen and walked out from the house. I told her the leftover food is in the refrigerator , she can heat it and eat. I have no accurate place to go , I loitter around wish somebody will find me. Then , I realised I had nobody for me. The only and only girl I loved for a year and half has left me. I kicked a small stone and it flew and fell into the water.
It's already late , I realised I left my cousin in the apartment alone. I had to drive back fast as I came really far to find peace. By the time I reached home ,
I saw the lights are off so she must have slept off. I was sleepy so I head off to bed. A light from a small lamp around the corner of living room shine through the shadow of a girl holding her phone. " It's lucky that he didn't notice me or identify me , haha :) " When I woke up , I noticed a cup of coffee beside mt bed and a towel on the bed. I rub my eye to see whether is this happening for true. For a minute , I thought it was she who came back but when I visit the kitchen. It was my cousin who prepared all this. I never like anybody replacing her but I went away silently. I left a note " Don't ever make a coffee and leave a towel on bed " and left. When I came back , I saw her cleaning my kitchen meanwhile the note I left on table never disturbed by her. My blood rise when she didn't notice the note , I dunno why but I scolded her loudly. Words are uttered without realising and imbalance words are flying in the air. She flipped her hair and looked at me , asking me " Do you want biscuit? I made it myself ". When I was getting more angry , I saw a handsfree hanging on her ears. I left after punching the wall with my fist. " Why people don't listen to me ".
' Vino , VINO. Stop , why are you ignoring me? What I did? " while holding her arm 'Leave Kuga , I SAY LEAVE " She left angrily. "NOOOO , Vino I need you , please I need you... noo noo" I felt someone was shakking my legs and I woke up. Nandhini was holding my leg. She said I was saying a name loudly. I pushed her to the side and drank the water in the bottle. She woke up and walked away to her room. While walking I noticed her hip and butt. It was quite shaky. " omg , why am I ? " I slept back.
It's already late , I realised I left my cousin in the apartment alone. I had to drive back fast as I came really far to find peace. By the time I reached home ,
I saw the lights are off so she must have slept off. I was sleepy so I head off to bed. A light from a small lamp around the corner of living room shine through the shadow of a girl holding her phone. " It's lucky that he didn't notice me or identify me , haha :) " When I woke up , I noticed a cup of coffee beside mt bed and a towel on the bed. I rub my eye to see whether is this happening for true. For a minute , I thought it was she who came back but when I visit the kitchen. It was my cousin who prepared all this. I never like anybody replacing her but I went away silently. I left a note " Don't ever make a coffee and leave a towel on bed " and left. When I came back , I saw her cleaning my kitchen meanwhile the note I left on table never disturbed by her. My blood rise when she didn't notice the note , I dunno why but I scolded her loudly. Words are uttered without realising and imbalance words are flying in the air. She flipped her hair and looked at me , asking me " Do you want biscuit? I made it myself ". When I was getting more angry , I saw a handsfree hanging on her ears. I left after punching the wall with my fist. " Why people don't listen to me ".
' Vino , VINO. Stop , why are you ignoring me? What I did? " while holding her arm 'Leave Kuga , I SAY LEAVE " She left angrily. "NOOOO , Vino I need you , please I need you... noo noo" I felt someone was shakking my legs and I woke up. Nandhini was holding my leg. She said I was saying a name loudly. I pushed her to the side and drank the water in the bottle. She woke up and walked away to her room. While walking I noticed her hip and butt. It was quite shaky. " omg , why am I ? " I slept back.
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